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deceasedxfeast asked: you work at a jiffy lube? so do i

I’m sorry to hear that. Yeah, I do. I don’t get paid shit haha.

Vent

I don’t know how many people will read this. I’m assuming very few if any. But I’m going to write it anyway because I need to put these thoughts somewhere. So here it goes. 

I’m extremely unhappy with the quality of my life. I hate my job. I hate my living situation. Every friend that I have but two always turn out to suck. I got my heart broken not even a month into a relationship that I, for the first time in a very long time, actually completely put my heart into. I miss my family so much that it draws tears from my eyes every time I think about it. My car is broken probably past the point of fixing. I have no money. My dead end job pays barely enough for me to get by. Everything always seems to come together, and then completely fall apart before even have enough time to enjoy it. Now if you’re reading this, then you’re probably thinking, “Get a better job. Find better friends. Live somewhere else. Go see your family. Save up for a car.” Yeah, sounds easy, doesn’t it? I have no motivation. And that feels like the thing I lack the most in my life. I say I want all of these things to get better, but it feels hopeless to even try. 

For the first time since high school, I’m in love. Only problem is, she’s not my girlfriend anymore. Her name is Tori, and she is seriously the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. Every thing about her completely melts me. And it’s driving me crazy that I can’t call her mine now. It feels like every time I put my heart into something, I get let down. And it’s started to bring me to the conclusion that I’m just not going to put my heart into anything anymore. 

I could honestly write about this for hours, but it’s starting to bring me down and I need to take my mind elsewhere. If you read this, give me some feedback. Reblog it. I need an outside perspective on it that isn’t something I already know.